first of all… girl, I’m with ya. sometimes I seriously wanna just walk out of the room mid-conversation, or maybe even put some people in their place for once. unfortunately, that’s just not how life works. this is such a weird stage of life, an odd in between of being a child and being thrown into full adulthood. it’s scary, and returning back home after living life according to your own agenda can be frustrating, to say the least. I love my family to death, but the reality is we are all human, and far from perfect. with that comes complexity, and, often, lots (seriously, lots) of conflict. as a college freshman actively living through this crazy season, I can’t really offer any reassurance from someone who has lived through it and is on the other side, however, I can offer some encouragement from someone who can honestly say: I’m with you, I see you, and you are not alone.
“be slow to speak, quick to listen, and slow to anger.” while this is definitely one of those things that’s much easier to say than actually put into practice, holding onto these words have stopped me from saying a lot of things I probably would’ve regretted. these words are in scripture for a reason, and they lay the groundwork for how we are supposed to interact with the people around us.
one of my friends once told me that when she’s driving and gets stuck behind a less-than-fantastic driver, instead of letting her anger get the best of her she stops and prays for the person in front of her. this got me thinking. what if we lived our lives like this all the time? I mean, the bible does say to pray for your enemies. not saying that everyone who makes you mad is suddenly your enemy because that would be a whole different problem, but just think how much friction could be dissolved simply through training your mind to react with prayer instead of anger.
everyone has their own spiritual journeys, and it’s probably not gonna align with yours. this is one thing that helped me let go of so much resentment I was holding against people in my life. everyone has their own sin struggles, their own doubts, and their own spiritual battles. God gives us grace, so why can’t we give some to each other?
“But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, God’s special possession, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light.”
1 Peter 2:9
I know you want to prove yourself. prove you’re smart enough, good enough, sociable enough, etc. when it feels like you don’t measure up to the people you care about the most, it’s discouraging. but like so many other things, the best way to react is by combatting these thoughts with what our Father says about us as His beloved daughters. you are chosen and called a special treasure by the Creator of the universe, you just need to start believing it!
Help My Unbelief 
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